In November 2014 I posted this thread: http://www.teslamotorsclub.com/showthread.php/38035-No-More-Tesla The person who was ill was my wife. She had stage 4 breast cancer. She died four weeks ago tomorrow. I'm still trying to wrap my head around that horrible reality. She told me several times during the course of her illness how bad she felt about my not getting the car. She was fighting for her life, and felt bad for me about a car! Early this November, knowing what was coming, she told me to use her retirement money to buy the Tesla I almost got last year. In one way I think buying the Tesla would be honoring her wishes. I think she really wanted me to do that. But in another way it seems like it's just an incredibly selfish thing to do. Plus buying the car may turn out to be a constant painful reminder of losing her. Sometimes life really sucks.