Thank you for the advice, I will heed it. One of the defenses I keep repeating to everybody is that the money is locked up in untouchable for many years, I know that really is not going to change anything but I’d like to think it slows people down in thinking that I’m not gonna go out and spend it on literally anything while some struggle to make ends meet. I’ve literally told everybody that if my house burns down tomorrow, or if I find myself with a big hospital bill, I would get an apartment or a loan and not use any of this investment for anything other accrue value over the next several years.
So far, the mental toll and my gut is telling me this probably wasn’t worth it even though there have not been any obvious negative consequences thus far, I am no longer on the same playing field is any of my family or friends which is pretty isolating when everyone knows it. On the other hand it was also isolating that I could not talk to anybody IRL, that I had to lead this secret life where I lied to people about financial matters, and that was almost as worse to me. I’ve traded one form of isolation to another form of isolation, let’s see if this door leads to greener pastures. sorry mods for the OT rant.
If not for some of this forum's members being fairly open about their life-changing gains and how they got them, I would not be in that boat myself at the moment. I am super grateful to them that they have shown me it is possible, and even supported me in my path there. So consider your going public as a service to others in showing them that this path is there for those willing to walk it. Someone out there might have picked this up like I did from your example and will thank you later.
Also, as it should, being on the edge and a bit over the edge shows you where you got work to do. Personally I am currently using my friends as accountability partners: I told a number of them I'm going to quit my day job in September (they already know the financial side), both because we're always open with such things, and in this case I'm concerned I'm gonna chicken out. After working an intense and demanding job for 25 years, it is scary to jump off that cliff. Nothing but 100% support from them.
Having close and meaningful connections with other people is the leading indicator of life expectancy and health. Think about it. If your current inner circle of people is so messed up when it comes to material well being, either become a leader in un-messing this up, or find a group of people who have a healthier relationship with wealth.