I feel you.
Just finished 7 days straight on call, spent 2 nights up for open fractures, 2 other nights they called me 3-4 times during the night for analgesia adjustment to complete half doses, on my OR on Friday I felt I was not in an optimal shape, and it finished with 8 cases on Saturday and Sunday.
Didn’t see my kids and my wife for the whole week. Those sacrifices we have to make, I don’t see myself doing that after 60, maybe even sooner.
When my portfolio hits 5M, I will have to think about the future to transition to private practice to avoid being on call 1/4, that’s the worst.
Good luck to you and take care of your family