I feel EXACTLY the same way. The thing is.... aside from it being a gas vehicle, I genuinely LOVE my vehicle. (Cadillac XT5). I think it's woefully under appreciated in the general market.
The interior is nicer than the Model 3 ...
It's got a bunch of features the Model 3 doesn't have (360 camera, rear view camera, heated steering wheel, illuminated door handles (Elon wants to talk about s3xy - these are gorgeous at night!), hands-free liftgate, Apple CarPlay, cooled seats, plus a bunch of other goodies I'll remember once I don't have them.) ...
... but it's a gasoline vehicle, and it doesn't have Autopilot. So I just might convince myself to get into a Model 3 for the short term, until the Y arrives. Or, re-up for another 2 years with the XT5.
Not having a lease option will HEAVILY swing me towards the XT5 again. The upfront layout will be minimal, the monthly payments would be less than a Model 3 purchase, and I'll likely get a few month pullahead from GM to get into a new XT5 early. And, the end of lease fee would be waived.
Why Tesla can't do a nice, tan interior for the Model 3, I'll never understand ...