Yeah, anxiety is definitely the right word. I have felt it several times, at worst it is a pretty bad feeling. I get it that it is only a tow usually, but there are often schedule pressures to consider that do not make it that simple.
Back in 2014 cold weather and lack of local charging options at a destination forced me to waste several hours finding a few Tesla incompatible chargers, one too slow a charger (the place it was in would have closed before I had my sufficient fill) and then another that finally solved my issue in the dark of the night, with few tens of kilmeters to spare and two hours away from home... That was real anxiety and of course killed the schedule.
But it can be just social pressures. Just a week ago I was taking the family in my Model S, which I had been driving quite a bit and was leaving the house with something like 35 kilometers of range. Our home charging is too slow to do anything about it at that moment. But the destination was 19 kilometers away and featured ten or so destination charging stalls, so I should be fine.
Come the moment of truth, do I take the Model S or an ICE. A recent experience where cold weather killed 25 kilometers of range in under 10 km, so finally I decide against the BEV. I am already sitting in the ICE when I note we would need to fill its tank anyway and I hate doing that. So I change my mind and tell everyone to move to the Model S, which they grudgingly do. I told myself I was being overly cautious, it would be fine. The weather is mild enough.
We all sit in the Model S and hit the road. The thing is, visiting the gas station quickly with the ICE would be no problem, but charging the EV before the destination is not really possible, so I better have made the right call. To get a significant enough charge, that would also account for any detour needed, would take too much time with people on-board... I would not hear the end of it, were we forced to stop for 15 minutes of charging, let alone for two hours of towing. This is simply a different kind of problem on an EV. It doesn't help that "any car can break down", an EV tow right now would be on me...
So, I am already apprehensive when we get on the road, but my apprehension is turning into full-blown anxiety as I watch the range diminish at a frightful speed. We're 5 kilometers from the house and it is already down almost 10 km. Okay, it is a fast stretch of motorway, it will get better soon... I slow down, switch to range mode, start turning some things off, while trying to keep the family unaware of anything amiss. After all, I'm the one that made the call to take the BEV... Keep talking happy. I do. As far as I know, I am the only anxious person in the car.
Anxiety is absolutely the right word for this. I feel responsible, not just for my own drive but for everyone's time, and the nature of EVs is limiting my options. I know too much to not be anxious, for everyone else in the car ignorance about EVs and the current predicament is a bliss. With the ICE I could have always visited the gas station, with the BEV I better make it to the destination... But now I have made the call. Have I made the right call? And what if the destination charging, for some reason, is not available?
We hit a slightly slower stretch of road and the range calms down a little, and I notice myself being a little less nervous about it. But still that range is there, counting down to doom. It is not an enjoyable drive by any means, I am wishing I would just have taken the ICE.
Then we hit traffic. Sitting there, not moving much, the range is still slowly ticking towards zero. Luckily the slower speeds help. Finally comes the next decision time: which final route to the destination do I take, as its charging is split into two locations with slightly different routes leading to them. Do I drive longer for a (possibly) more guaranteed spot or try the nearest one? At this stage I am even mapping in my mind the maintenance outlets in the parking garage for an emergency... (They would not like that, but hey.)
So, we get down to single digits of range. Starting at 35 range and 19 kilometers of road, I should be at 16. Not 6. Here we are at 6, still on the way, cold(ish) weather and all. My initial concern was warranted. Experience helps a little here, though, I know the Tesla will move some ways even at 0 - at this stage I know we are going to make it, but is the charging available? Will it work?
The chargers are behind a corner. Driving that last stretch, I find myself caught for a moment between terror and bliss, going through the contigencies in my mind: OK, if this is full or under service, I will have enough range to check the second charger section and, finally, at least to park in a warm garage and still probably have enough range to re-check the chargers upon return to the car later. The biggest concern, having to leave the car in some unsuitable place, is alleviated...
I turn the corner and the green lights of the charging stalls welcome me, as range turns to 3 km or something. A lone Tesla is taking up one of the stalls, five chargers are empty. It is a beautiful sight. And they work. When we eventually return to the car later that night, it would be filled to 90%.
Casually I note to the family: "See, taking the EV was just fine. You should just trust me!"